Today felt just like this rollercoaster ... nose dive! I went from preparation mode and feeling so sure that with passing up 7 months of DTE that we were just around the bend to that long awaited day ... REFERRAL DAY!
to
NOPE ... not gonna happen ... not for a while!
I was siting in the middle of a meeting for Ground to Cup when I heard an e-mail come in on my phone. Sneaking a peek I see that it's from my family coordinator, Jennifer.
Hmmmmm ... wonder what it says?
As your family is in the waiting stage of the adoption process, we are writing to inform you of a change to our predicted timeframes between dossier submission and referral.
The wait for an infant male referral is now predicted to be between 10 and 16 months. The wait for an infant female referral is now predicted to be between 11 and 18 months. Wait times currently show a trend of increasing.
There are many factors that contribute to wait times. Each child’s case can vary in the amount of time it takes to be ready to be referred to a family. America World thoroughly investigates each case and it can take weeks, and at times months, to clear referrals with medical or documentation issues, or to obtain necessary governmental documents/clearances/etc. that are needed before he or she can be referred.
While we know this news is disappointing, we are encouraged to share that MOWCYA has increased the number of recommendation letters they write to 15 per day. We will continue to apprise your family of any other changes that occur, and we are praying for your family and all families in the various stages of the adoption process. Please feel free to let me know if you have any follow up-questions.
UGH! There went my lunch. Just like that, I went from sitting at the top of the roller coaster to taking a plunging and gut wrenching fall.
Of course. Lucky me, I was amidst others so I bravely held back the tears and forced a smile the next several hours...
until the drive home
GUSH! Sob!
What does this mean? 7 months isn't even close to "our day"! Our wait just got
LOOOOOONGER!
LOOOOOONGER!
Oh, I trust the Lord. I know what you want to say to me "His timing is perfect". Believe me, I know it is! I know he is faithful and I know his timing is perfection ...But frankly, I just have to be totally honest and say that Today.Felt. AWFUL! Today, I got kicked in the gut. Today, someone let the air out of my tires. Today, I nose dived down a roller coaster - and I don't even like roller coasters - and threw up on my way down. Simply put.
Today ...THIS SUCKS!
So, we wait and wait and wait some more. Yep, that's what you do when the Lord calls you to something ... you trust and you wait. And sometimes, in the middle of it all, you
cry
cry
And even when your done crying,
you praise him!
you praise him!
3 comments:
I can only imagine the flip flop your heart went through today. So hard to trust God's timing! I have this "word" posted on my computer and see it every day as a reminder:
"You are right on schedule, but not according to your time frame. You have placed yourself under My authority and kingdom rule where time on the earth takes only a secondary position. You can make your arrangements and set your schedules, but you must remember that My purposes for you supersede natural plans. For, I see and know all things, and I know how to bring about that which is best for you, says the Lord."
Cristie, the waiting is KILLER. It's like nothing I have ever experienced...and you have already been waiting a long time. I want you to know I am praying for you and the precious child waiting to join your family. I honestly can't say I understand all the waiting, but I know we're not alone on the roller coaster...Christ Himself is fully aware of the "motion sickness" and He holds the remedy to the pain.
When I wasn't sure if we were going to be able to travel to Russia or not to meet the 2 boys we had been dreaming of, I was spurred on by this verse: "And one thing more: Prepare a guest room for me, because I hope to be restored to you in answer to your prayers." Philemon 1:22. Keep working on that great little boy's room... HE IS COMING.
p.s. I have been listening to that Christy Nockles song all evening! how "ironic".
amen and amen.
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